Do I Satisfy You?

One early morning I was sitting in the dark praying when the Lord whispered, "Do I satisfy you?" My heart slowed as I felt the words slide from my mind down into the deepest place in my soul.

Tears streamed down my eyes. I turned my face almost embarrassed, "Yes, yes, you do."

He was silent but my thoughts were aroused.

Why is it so difficult to believe in a God who is all sufficient while the needs of life seem so overwhelming?

There's more lack and want than fulfillment. Then my mind traveled back several years. I remember the bitter ache of loneliness. A dull ache which drove me to dark, rebellious places. All I wanted was a moments relief, but only found more frustration and separation from God.

Days later a single strand of truth floated across my mind. I sat down at the kitchen table. "Lord you know how much I spent my life trying to please self. How empty it has left me. How destructive it has been to me and others in my life."

God knows even when I was close and right with Him, I tried in my own strength to gain His acceptance only to fail miserably.

As I became to weep a deep longing poured out of my lips.

"Jesus, let me please you, satisfy your aching heart! But I'm so lost in how I can bring true joy to your heart?"

Until I realized the truth found in Revelation 4:11 "Thou art worthy, O Lord, to receive glory and honour and power: for thou hast created all things, and for thy pleasure they are and were created." (KJV).

I was made for His pleasure. What a freeing truth to stand before Him in prayer. To say with confidence, "You made me, formed me, kept and sustained my life because I bring pleasure to you!

In the same way, just as the Father said to Jesus when He came out of the waters of baptism, "And a voice from heaven said, "This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased." (Matthew 3:17 NIV).

Beloved, you are God's delight and pleasure. Not mired or muddled by past failures or today's fumbles. He desires with a deep yearning to hear you speak to Him. Even one time to glance up at the clouds in the sky and think on Him.

Oh, how His heart must be aroused with a jealousy to have the desire of His heart - that is us- all to Himself.